2005/06/29
30をすぎたら

昨日の朝、室井佑月がテレビでこんなことを言ってた。

「30過ぎたら、自分のためだけにはがんばれなくなるから……」

そういえば20代って、理由がなくてもがんばっていたことがたくさんあった。そういえば、自分の仕事に対する意識が激変して精神的にとても辛くなったのは、30歳になったばかりのときだった。そういえば、今活躍している同業の方たちは、20代の率が高い。

ただがむしゃらにがんばれた日々は、もう過去のものなの?誰かのために何かのためにと理由をつけないと、パワーが沸いてこなくなってしまうの?

まっすぐな気持ちをぶつけられるのは、若さを守る大人がいるから――若いころ、そんなことをうすうす感じてはいた。自分がもう「そっち側」に入ったということなのだろうか?自分にとって大切なもの、守るべきものを、私はちゃんと分かっているんだろうか。

心が大人になる前に年齢だけを重ねてしまっているのでは、と不安になってくる。

コメント/トラックバック(258)
TrackbackURL:http://www.mayunezu.com/mt/mt-tb.cgi/234
コメント&トラックバック

Perfect site, i like it!

by no prescripption adipex 2009.09.18 14:46

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by purcahse tramadol 2009.09.18 12:49

Perfect site, i like it!

Perfect work!

by tramadol helps withdrawal 2009.09.18 08:56

Great. Now i can say thank you!

by affect side tramadol 2009.09.18 06:59

Great site. Good info.

by buying generic cialis 2009.09.18 05:03

Great. Now i can say thank you!

by phentermine accion diet tabs 2009.09.18 03:06

It is the coolest site, keep so!

by cialis generic tabs 2009.09.18 01:09

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by adipex p with no prescription 2009.09.17 23:13

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by cialis ohio pa prescribe 2009.09.17 21:16

Perfect site, i like it!

I bookmarked this link. Thank you for good job!

by cialis prices 2009.09.17 17:21

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by cialis revies 2009.09.17 15:25

Great. Now i can say thank you!

by adipex dosage and administration 2009.09.17 13:28

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by cheaest cialis professional 2009.09.17 11:31

Excellent site. It was pleasant to me.

by cialis experiences 2009.09.17 09:34

It is the coolest site, keep so!

by valim xanax usa 2009.09.17 07:36

Incredible site!

by controlled substances tramadol 2009.09.17 05:39

I bookmarked this link. Thank you for good job!

by tramadol collect on delivery 2009.09.17 03:42

It is the coolest site, keep so!

by cialis new york 2009.09.17 01:44

I bookmarked this link. Thank you for good job!

by tramadol asthma 2009.09.16 23:46

Beautiful site!

by manufacture of adipex 2009.09.16 21:48

Great site. Good info.

by tramadol psychosis 2009.09.16 19:50

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

Great site. Keep doing.

I want to say - thank you for this!

by extended release tramadol 2009.09.16 13:53

Great. Now i can say thank you!

by adipex cheapest price 2009.09.16 11:56

I want to say - thank you for this!

Perfect site, i like it!

by cialis jual klang 2009.09.16 07:59

I bookmarked this link. Thank you for good job!

by xanax and emg 2009.09.16 06:01

Great site. Good info.

by lexapro with xanax 2009.09.16 04:03

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by adipex p home 2009.09.10 15:49

Perfect site, i like it!

by cialis in dublin 2009.09.10 13:50

Great. Now i can say thank you!

by tramadol hcl breastfeeding 2009.09.10 11:51

Incredible site!

by free samples cialis 2009.09.10 09:52

Excellent site. It was pleasant to me.

by tramadol cod online pharmacy 2009.09.10 07:53

It is the coolest site, keep so!

by duromine phentermine 2009.09.10 05:57

Great site. Good info.

by tramadol how often 2009.09.10 03:59

Excellent site. It was pleasant to me.

by xanax no presciption 2009.09.10 02:00

Great site. Good info.

by adipex weight loss drug 2009.09.10 00:02

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by yellow adipex 2009.09.09 22:05

Perfect site, i like it!

I want to say - thank you for this!

by adipex prescription 2009.09.09 18:11

If you have to do it, you might as well do it right.

It is the coolest site, keep so!

by phentermine plataue 2009.09.09 14:16

I bookmarked this link. Thank you for good job!

by xanax half life 2009.09.09 12:19

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

I bookmarked this link. Thank you for good job!

Perfect work!

by adipex overnight 24 hr delivery 2009.09.09 06:29

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by cheap tramadol overnight 2009.09.09 04:33

It is the coolest site, keep so!

by mix tramadol and benedryl 2009.09.09 02:36

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

Beautiful site!

by fda approved cialis 2009.09.03 18:22

Perfect site, i like it!

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by need refrigerate tramadol 2009.09.03 14:24

Perfect work!

by discount generic cialis 2009.09.03 12:27

Great site. Keep doing.

by phoenix liquid cialis 2009.09.03 10:29

If you have to do it, you might as well do it right.

Perfect site, i like it!

by expired tramadol 2009.09.03 06:33

If you have to do it, you might as well do it right.

by tramadol pets 2009.09.03 04:36

Incredible site!

by adipex 37.5 order no denials 2009.09.03 02:39

It is the coolest site, keep so!

by nextday tramadol 180 2009.09.03 00:42

It is the coolest site, keep so!

by blood test tramadol 2009.09.02 22:45

Great site. Good info.

by tramadol diarrhea 2009.09.02 20:49

Excellent site. It was pleasant to me.

by codeine and tramadol 2009.09.02 18:52

Great site. Good info.

by cialis bulletin board 2009.09.02 16:58

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by adipex side effects 2009.09.02 15:01

Perfect work!

I want to say - thank you for this!

by cialis vs warfarin 2009.09.02 11:08

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by tramadol pain control 2009.09.02 09:09

Great. Now i can say thank you!

by cialis non generic 2009.09.02 07:13

It is the coolest site, keep so!

Great site. Keep doing.

Great. Now i can say thank you!

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by phentermine pill 2009.08.31 11:15

It is the coolest site, keep so!

by query lowest cialis price online 2009.08.31 09:22

I bookmarked this link. Thank you for good job!

by viagra versus cialis 2009.08.31 07:27

I bookmarked this link. Thank you for good job!

by cialis on line 2009.08.31 05:34

I want to say - thank you for this!

by free samples cialis 2009.08.31 03:40

If you have to do it, you might as well do it right.

by non prescription phentermine 2009.08.31 01:49

Beautiful site!

by phentermine hci 2009.08.30 23:57

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by phentermine no prescription 2009.08.30 22:06

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by phentermine 37.5 90 2009.08.30 20:14

I want to say - thank you for this!

by cheap 37 5 phentermine 2009.08.30 18:24

Great site. Good info.

by ordering tramadol online 2009.08.30 16:36

Perfect site, i like it!

by drugs lethal dose tramadol 2009.08.30 14:49

Beautiful site!

by cialis response 2009.08.30 13:01

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by cialis pill 2009.08.30 09:18

It is the coolest site, keep so!

by tramadol 377 2009.08.30 07:27

Great site. Good info.

by cialis story 2009.08.30 05:36

I bookmarked this link. Thank you for good job!

by whats tramadol 2009.08.27 17:36

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by is tenuate generic adipex 2009.08.27 15:43

Perfect site, i like it!

by can egg donation and tramadol 2009.08.27 13:51

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by cialis online prescription 2009.08.27 12:00

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by tramadol 120 tablets 2009.08.27 10:08

Great site. Keep doing.

by series xxx 3 buy cheap soma 2009.08.27 08:17

Great. Now i can say thank you!

by cialis 10 mg 2009.08.27 06:27

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by xanax vs clodopins what is it 2009.08.27 04:37

Perfect work!

by over the counter cialis 2009.08.27 02:46

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by adipex order without rx 2009.08.27 00:57

I want to say - thank you for this!

Perfect work!

Great. Now i can say thank you!

by cheap real phentermine 2009.08.26 19:30

I want to say - thank you for this!

by soma 325mg 120 2009.08.26 17:41

Beautiful site!

I bookmarked this link. Thank you for good job!

by on line viagra american pharmacy 2009.08.26 13:59

Incredible site!

Beautiful site!

by tramadol on line cheap 2009.08.26 10:21

It is the coolest site, keep so!

by cialis perscriptions 2009.08.26 08:32

It is the coolest site, keep so!

by how to order tramadol online 2009.08.26 06:43

Great. Now i can say thank you!

by phentermine effective 2009.08.23 22:33

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by xanax how many mg to overdose 2009.08.23 20:44

Great site. Keep doing.

by cheapest phentermine order online 2009.08.23 18:56

Great site. Good info.

by cialis pill identifyer 2009.08.23 16:27

I want to say - thank you for this!

by genaric cialis 2009.08.23 13:30

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by 35 dollar phentermine 2009.08.23 10:32

Excellent site. It was pleasant to me.

Great site. Keep doing.

by phentermine mexico 2009.08.23 04:37

If you have to do it, you might as well do it right.

by viagra product strategy 2009.08.23 01:29

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by tramadol hydrochloride 50mg 2009.08.22 22:23

It is the coolest site, keep so!

by dont mix beer and viagra 2009.08.22 19:20

Great site. Good info.

by does xanax show on drug test 2009.08.22 16:20

Perfect site, i like it!

by phentermine kosmix topic page 2009.08.22 13:26

Incredible site!

Perfect site, i like it!

by viagra and ph 2009.08.22 07:31

Great. Now i can say thank you!

If you have to do it, you might as well do it right.

Incredible site!

by cheapest adipex diet pill 2009.08.21 21:10

Beautiful site!

by xanax pay by electronic check 2009.08.21 18:08

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by tramadol hcl tabs side effects 2009.08.21 15:21

It is the coolest site, keep so!

by phentermine tolerance 2009.08.21 12:47

I want to say - thank you for this!

Beautiful site!

by what if i snort phentermine 2009.08.21 07:34

If you have to do it, you might as well do it right.

Beautiful site!

If you have to do it, you might as well do it right.

by tramadol 60 tablets 2009.08.20 17:32

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

Great site. Keep doing.

by tramadol interactions 2009.08.20 11:44

Perfect work!

by liquid valium no prescription 2009.08.20 08:49

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by about tramadol 2009.08.20 05:50

Perfect work!

by tramadol and sheep 2009.08.20 02:46

I want to say - thank you for this!

by can i take trileptal and xanax 2009.08.19 23:26

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by adipex mexico pharmacy 2009.08.19 20:21

Perfect site, i like it!

by buy cialis 2009.08.19 17:33

Beautiful site!

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

I want to say - thank you for this!

by phentermine 37.5mg diet pills 2009.08.19 09:23

Perfect work!

by soma and beer 2009.08.19 06:15

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

I bookmarked this link. Thank you for good job!

by tramadol lost sex drive 2009.08.18 13:50

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by adipex wikpedia 2009.08.18 11:00

Incredible site!

I bookmarked this link. Thank you for good job!

by adipex p buy adipex p 2009.08.18 04:53

Perfect site, i like it!

by bergama soma rug 2009.08.18 01:37

Excellent site. It was pleasant to me.

by tramadol hcl 50 2009.08.17 22:14

I want to say - thank you for this!

by tramadol florida delivery 2009.08.17 19:06

I want to say - thank you for this!

Excellent site. It was pleasant to me.

by valium baby effects 2009.08.17 13:11

Great site. Good info.

Perfect site, i like it!

by tramadol vs hydrocdone 2009.08.17 06:57

Perfect site, i like it!

by soma street prices 2009.08.17 03:59

Great site. Good info.

by overnight valium no prescription 2009.08.17 01:08

If you have to do it, you might as well do it right.

by tramadol apap 37.5mg 325mg 2009.08.16 22:19

Great site. Keep doing.

by anyone getting phentermine online 2009.08.16 19:32

It is the coolest site, keep so!

by buy phentermine direct 2009.08.16 16:45

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by cialis profestional 2009.08.16 14:06

Beautiful site!

by tramadol rash 2009.08.16 11:21

Great site. Good info.

by can you mix xanax and ativan 2009.08.16 08:40

Great site. Good info.

by tramadol classification type 2009.08.16 05:00

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by adipex diet pills north carolina 2009.08.16 02:21

Perfect work!

by u id password cialis 2009.08.15 23:35

Excellent site. It was pleasant to me.

by tramadol bupropion 2009.08.15 20:51

It is the coolest site, keep so!

by cheapest viagra tablets 2009.08.15 18:04

If you have to do it, you might as well do it right.

by drug tramadol apap 2009.08.15 15:13

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by mens cialis 2009.08.15 12:22

Great site. Good info.

by cialis and viagra purchase online 2009.08.15 09:28

Beautiful site!

by better phentermine or adipex 2009.08.15 06:37

If you have to do it, you might as well do it right.

by adipex without script 2009.08.15 03:40

I want to say - thank you for this!

by viagra patent expiration date 2009.08.15 00:33

Incredible site!

by how to get off with tramadol 2009.08.14 21:36

I want to say - thank you for this!

by tramadol cod order tramadol 2009.08.14 18:25

Excellent site. It was pleasant to me.

by viagra from india 2009.08.14 15:33

Great site. Good info.

by cheapest day order phentermine 2009.08.14 12:41

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by r cialis hort net 2009.08.14 09:46

I bookmarked this link. Thank you for good job!

by phentermine cheap 2009.08.14 07:00

Excellent site. It was pleasant to me.

by phentermine need prescription 2009.08.13 22:16

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by tramadol effects 2009.08.13 19:33

Incredible site!

If you have to do it, you might as well do it right.

by effects viagra women 2009.08.13 14:04

Beautiful site!

by cialis soft 10 2009.08.13 11:18

Beautiful site!

by ultram tramadol hci 2009.08.13 08:24

Perfect work!

by xanax withdrawel symptoms 2009.08.13 05:31

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by phentermine doctor san diego 2009.08.13 02:38

Incredible site!

by valium drug class 2009.08.12 23:41

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by phentermine blue specks 2009.08.12 20:40

Perfect work!

by cheap phentermine uspharmacy 2009.08.12 16:23

If you have to do it, you might as well do it right.

by phentermine phentermine 2009.08.12 13:44

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by uk suppliers of phentermine 2009.08.12 10:59

It is the coolest site, keep so!

Perfect site, i like it!

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by cialis versus viagra 2009.08.10 00:21

I bookmarked this link. Thank you for good job!

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by viagra samples 2009.08.09 16:35

Incredible site!

by how to separate phentermine 2009.08.09 14:02

Great site. Keep doing.

by valium and short term memory loss 2009.08.09 11:23

Great. Now i can say thank you!

If you have to do it, you might as well do it right.

by meds phentermine viagra 2009.08.09 06:18

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by phentermine 37.5mg tablets 90 2009.08.09 03:46

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by urine testing tramadol 2009.08.05 11:20

I want to say - thank you for this!

by cialis order online 2009.08.05 09:49

It is the coolest site, keep so!

by nonprescription adipex 2009.08.05 08:19

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by non generic cialis from canada 2009.08.05 05:19

Perfect work!

by phentermine 30mg no rx 2009.08.05 03:10

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by where to buy viagra online 2009.08.05 01:42

It is the coolest site, keep so!

by phentermine no prescription neded 2009.08.05 00:15

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by valium dosage vs xanax 2009.08.04 22:48

I bookmarked this link. Thank you for good job!

by levitra viagra or cialis 2009.08.04 21:22

I want to say - thank you for this!

by cialis prescriptions 2009.08.04 19:55

Beautiful site!

Perfect work!

by diet pills adipex 2009.08.04 17:03

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by tramadol hcl acetamenophen 2009.08.04 15:38

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by lava soma hot springs 2009.08.04 14:14

It is the coolest site, keep so!

by soma artist 2009.08.04 12:50

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by net cialis 2009.08.04 11:22

Great site. Good info.

by who makes the drug soma 2009.08.04 09:58

I bookmarked this link. Thank you for good job!

by reviews on adipex 2009.08.04 08:35

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by phentermine identifier 2009.08.04 06:41

Great. Now i can say thank you!

by viagra 6 free samples 2009.08.04 04:29

If you have to do it, you might as well do it right.

by tramadol 100 contra 2009.08.04 04:13

Great. Now i can say thank you!

I bookmarked this link. Thank you for good job!

by tramadol canine dose 2009.08.04 01:05

F3gPgZ Great site. Good info.

by phentermine cheapes price 2009.08.03 15:29

43qEk3 Perfect work!

by phentermine detox 2009.08.03 13:39

Dn27cl Perfect work!

by viagra and the male ego 2009.08.02 23:31

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by c o d phentermine 37.5 online 2009.08.02 09:04

Beautiful site!

by effects of tramadol 2009.08.02 00:20

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

Great. Now i can say thank you!

by tramadol snorting 2009.08.01 06:59

It is the coolest site, keep so!

by viagra los algodones pharmacy 2009.07.31 22:16

Perfect work!

Perfect site, i like it!

by buy phentermine diet pills 2009.07.31 05:39

Great work, webmaster, nice design!

by hindu mythology soma 2009.07.25 17:26

Great site. Good info.

by dog tramadol side effects 2009.07.25 10:48

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by soma rc crane 2009.07.25 08:00

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by phentermine and pregnancy test 2009.07.24 22:22

If you have to do it, you might as well do it right.

by beer with phentermine euphoria 2009.07.24 14:35

Very interesting site. Hope it will always be alive!

by cialis online nz new zealand 2009.07.24 06:49

Perfect work!

by aura soma essences 2009.07.24 00:11

Great. Now i can say thank you!

by ultram ultracet tramadol 2009.07.23 23:05

Beautiful site!

by buy cheap phentermine onli ne 2009.07.23 15:28

If you have to do it, you might as well do it right.

by coumadin cialis 2009.07.23 07:54

cqZUbA

by Gtfqizyw 2009.07.15 06:37

>エコ菜さん
そうそう。私もイメージとしては逆?という印象も持ってます。だって、おばさんパワーってすごいじゃない?(笑)
私も、仕事はいつも「人のため」ですねえ。今も。人のよろこびが自分のよろこびだから、結果的には自分のためなんだけど。
だけど、30を過ぎて思うのは、逆に自分だけのことをもっと考えないとがんばれなくなる、ってことなんだよなあ。
室井さんの言葉に違和感を持ったのは、そんなところにあったのかも。

>kazuさん
来てくださったんですね!ありがとうございます(^^)
そうそう、私もそう思ってたのです。この記事を書いててなんだかずーっと疑問ばっかりになっちゃったのは、多分そんなところにあったんですね。みなさんのコメントを見てやっと気がついた。
私は以前から「しょうがないからやる」ということができない人で、それで社会人の最初のころはとても苦労しました。意味・意義のないことは絶対やりたくなかった。
……で、今フリーなんだと思うのですけど^^;
んー。だんだんオトナからかけ離れていってる気がしないでもない。

>茶。さん
いやいや、分かる。
多分そういうことだよね。若いときは守られているからまっすぐ進めるけれど、1人で歩くとどうしても、いろんな寄り道をしなきゃならなくなる。自分が歩む道は、人にも影響を与えたりする。そういう意味で「自分のためだけにがんばれない」と言ったのかもしれないなあ。
彼女のBlogにトラックバックして真意を聞きたいくらいだ(笑)

by Mayunezu 2005.06.30 23:50

誰かの為に、何かの為にという理由付けをするという前に、単にまっすぐには進めないということなんじゃないかな。
30代にもなれば、責任やら、しがらみやらいろいろなものがまとわりついてくる。それをごまかすというか、正当化というかうまく言えないけど、自分を前に進ませる為に、それらを理由付けという形に置き換えているのかも。
なんだかワケわかんないことかいてるかも。(^^;)

by 茶。 2005.06.30 10:16

私も見ましたよ<コメント
30過ぎて思ったのは自分の嫌な事ができなくなってきたと感じる。
前は義務感だけでどうにかものを作り出すことができたけど、今は質を上げないといけないのが大変だなぁ,,,
年を取ると、だんだん 何かの為に。ができなくなってるんじゃないかと思ってた。

by kazu 2005.06.29 21:30

そうなんだ!
私は30過ぎてからのほうが仕事は充実してきて、楽しいかも(^^)

でも一方で、大人たちに守ってもらってる意識は皆目なくなりました(^^
>自分が大人たちのほうに入ってしまった_| ̄|○

自分が大人になれてるのか、正直不安ですorz
若い人からも吸収して、そして自分の経験をさらに深めていけるといいな、と思ってます。

>>しかし、そこまで仕事熱心でもなかったりするのでした(^^;;えへ。

結婚したときから、自分以外の人のために仕事してるので、今ようやく自分のためにも(強いてはチームの皆のため、そしてクライアントの目的達成のため!)仕事している感じではありますね。。。>うちの事情は、異常だからなあ。

by エコ菜 2005.06.29 15:30
おなまえ
E-mail
(公開されません)
URL
コメント
入力した内容を記憶する

Mayunezu Space Ver7